These questions were posted in a writing group that I am in and I thought I would share them with you. It's a very vulnerable post but it will give you more of an insight into my life and the way I am.
• Have you ever considered your uniqueness as valuable?
Not until recently. I always struggled with weight issues and and hated the fact that I had glasses and braces in the third grade. It was a tough childhood. My father was murdered when I was 9 which was third grade as well. I began to experience depression and anxiety at a very young age because of this. I was very insecure and shy. This went on into my Jr. high and highschool years and then I kinda went a little crazy in my 20s…my parents moved to Tennessee and my sister and I decided to stay here in California cause I had a really good job at the time. Anyway I partied, went to clubs, etc… got away from God. I married at 26, had 2 children then my husband at the time decided to get on drugs and alcohol real bad. He got kicked out of the army for it and we divorced when my second child was 9 months old. So the kids and I ended up moving in with my grandma (that was in 2003 and I am still here, taking care of grandma now).
So after all of that I have finally got my relationship right with God again. I struggle in the prayer area and giving things to Him but I am working on these. I am trying to pray throughout the day instead of one big prayer in the evening and morning. It is slowly becoming something I am getting used to doing. I don’t just want it to be a habit….I want it to be something that I want to do throughout the day.
• Do you believe God considers you and the way you are wired as valuable? If not, take time to consider why.
I do now… I am a homebody but I have a huge heart for helping people and encouraging them online, on the phone, through snail mail…I just don’t do good in person. But I do believe that I am valuable to God and others. It has taken a lot of time to realize this for reasons stated above but I feel so much more at peace knowing this.
• Are you ready to trust God with what He says about you?
Yes I am. I do trust God completely and know that He loves me and I am His child. He is there for me when no one else is and I trust Him and His word.