Jun 20, 2013

Need for Bible Study Week 11

Dear Heavenly Father,
          I praise you for the report yesterday that my heart is okay!  Thank you for that!   That is one less thing to worry about!  However, you know I have this swelling in my legs and feet and we don’t know where it is coming from.  I pray dear Lord that my doctor can figure out what it is.  Maybe it is a reaction to one of my medications, I don’t know.  Please Lord speak to my doctor when I see him on July 2nd, and give him the wisdom to be able to know what to do next about this swelling.
 
I also pray Lord to get my neuropathy under control.  My eyesight is giving me such problems, you know dear Lord what I am going through with that, I don’t need to elaborate and the pain Lord; please give me some relief from this pain.  I honestly don’t like having to use a walker at 39 years old.  But it is so hard to pick my feet up at times and so hard to put one foot in front of the other.  And dear Lord I have not even mentioned the back pain.

Lord you know what I am going through. I don’t want to be in this pain anymore.  I desperately cry out to you to take this from me.  Through tears I write this.  Lord I have children to take care of, who need a mother to care for them, not a mother who constantly is asking for their help. 


Please Lord I lift my pain and health up to you.  If I am supposed to have to endure this then please give me the strength and peace to accept it.  Please help me to be able to use it to your advantage Lord as a witness to you.  If not then please take this from me Lord.  I know you know what is best for me, and I just want to do your will.  So Lord I just lift my life up to you to do with as you will.  Amen.

6 comments:

  1. Shannan,

    I am in tears reading this, as I too suffer from several chronic illnesses and the life we have been called to is a hard one for sure. I would love to share this devotion that I got today and may it bless you in a special way!


    What If I Called Your Illness Just a Blip?


    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86dsfBbZfWs&feature=player_embedded



    b04 What If I Called Your Illness Just a Blip?
    4







    inShare.

    a blip What If I Called Your Illness Just a Blip?Are the little stresses in your life wasting away your eternal perspective? Lisa shares a video that has helped her.

    “A blip? Do you have any idea what I deal with each day? How dare you!” In my mind I can already hear the frustration that I would belittle such a painful experience –perhaps a lifetime of painful experiences into a blip. But stay with me for a minute.

    Over a year ago a friend recommended the video below of Francis Chan speaking about how long our life is–our eternal life. And, in comparison, just how small, how insignificant time-wise our life here on earth really is. And many months later, I still recall this video and spiritual reminder when times get tough.

    Take a moment to watch now… (If you don’t see a video, click here)



    If you were unable to watch the video, Mr. Chan has a rope that goes around an auditorium and he explains that the rope signifies our eternal life–so it actually never ends. At the end he holds, there is a small piece of red tape. And that represents our life. (For those of us with illness, it should be easy to see “red tape” signifying our life because we put up with a lot of it, right?)

    So, think for a moment of what you are going through today that is so tough. Would it even be on that piece of red tape that may represent 60-80 years. If you have recently lost a loved one, had a major surgery, or even had a baby, surely there will be a little mark on that tape, your timeline.

    But what is keeping you up at 2 AM worrying? The possible side effects of a new medication? The fact that you are going to have to find a new doctor? That your car needs new engine brackets for $1300? That your child hates math and refuses to try to learn anything this summer? (Not that I would know about these.)

    Are these worries, these huge ordeals you are experiencing, even going to show up on your little piece of red tape?

    As the little things overwhelm me, I have returned to Mr. Chan’s perspective many times. I have no trouble actually surrendering over the big stresses in my life to God. But the little ones, well, He wants those too. If you have given your heart over to Christ, your life is infinite. And only about “an inch” of our timeline is our entire life here on earth.

    I hope this comforts you as it has me.

    Prayer: God, the little things all seem like such big things in my life when they are all packed together. Help me keep perceptive on both the little ones and the big ones and hand them all over to You consistently. Thank You for bearing my burdens, Amen.

    About the author:
    Lisa Copen is the founder of Rest Ministries and she lives in San Diego with her husband and son. She is gradually learning how to balance motherhood, family, illness, and ministry, but she still knows it will be a lifetime lesson. You can see the books she has written, including, Why Can’t I Make People Understand? at the Rest Ministries shop.


    Do you allow the stresses in your life to get to you? Even if everyone tells you that you are handling the, well, do you still long for more peace at the Lord’s feet than weeping? How can this perspective help you cope better?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Wow I just watched the video and yes, he really puts things into perspective. I try so hard not to dwell on the pain. But then I find myself let it take control of me again and again. I really appreciate you sharing that with me. Thank you so much. I will save this so that I can refer back to it. God bless you and take care.

      Delete
  2. Our dear sweet Shannan,

    It is not His will for you to be in pain, His word says "My plans are to prosper Shannan and not to harm Shannan to offer Shannan a hope and a future"
    You cling to that truth girl! He healed me of a herniated disc in my back, without surgey! He is Jehovah Rapha the Lord who heals Shannan!

    Psalm 107:20 He sent out his word and healed them;
    Psalm 103 Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. 2 Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: 3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;

    Jerimiah 30:17 17 For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the LORD;

    Matthew 9:35 And Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every sickness and every disease among the people

    Matthew 15:30 And great multitudes came unto him, having with them those that were lame, blind, dumb, maimed, and many others, and cast them down at Jesus' feet; and he healed them

    Luke 9:2 2 And he sent them to preach the kingdom of God, and to heal the sick

    Luke 10:8 And into whatsoever city ye enter, and they receive you, eat such things as are set before you: 9 And heal the sick that are therein, and say unto them, The kingdom of God is come nigh unto you.

    Acts 5:16 and they were healed every one.

    This one is one of my favorites. If you have a church or family member that will lay hands on you to pray filled with the Holy spirit do it!

    James 5:14 Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord:


    Sorry to bombard your page, these are only a few of the scriptures that show Jesus does NOT want people to suffer!

    God Bless you sweet girl, I am claiming your healing in the name of Jesus!

    Melissa S OBS Group Leader

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Please bombard my page! Especially with scripture!!! Thank you for sharing, I appreciate and am claiming this healing too. I'm trying so very hard to not dwell on it and let it overtake me. I really am. It just comes out of nowhere and I find myself in the middle of a mess again and again. Thank you so much for sharing. God bless you.

      Delete
  3. Praying for healing for you as well, Shannan! God bless you for your sweet faith-filled prayers!! ~Steph

    ReplyDelete
  4. I understanding the feeling! I pray for you to find God's peace and strength.

    ReplyDelete