I have reached my breaking point on several issues; however the one I am going to discuss tonight is the one pertaining to my writing. I have wanted to be a writer ever since I was a little kid (like 2nd grade). My passion for writing has just gotten stronger and stronger and I have finally come to a place in my life where I can pursue my dream. Because of my health I can’t work so I am pretty much stuck at home, leaving me all the time in the world to write. I should be thrilled, right??
It’s funny how God works. So I start going crazy, thinking now is my time to write. I’m thinking autobiography, Christian romance novel, my life as a single parent bringing up 2 kids with special needs devotional book, autism book, mental illness book, devotionals, blogs for all different subjects…yah I went a little nuts. So God had to put a stop to that! I have a massive panic attack, my eyes go blurry, plus all my health issues. Now I can’t write anything.
So I realize I’ve overdone it and maybe God made my eyes blurry for a reason so that I would take a step back and let him tell me what He wants me to do. Because really it doesn’t matter what I want to do, it matters what He wants me to do. So I did that and I prayed. I wrote everything out that I wanted to do and I felt God crossing off the list what I shouldn’t be doing, at least for now anyway. So what was left was devotions and my blog. Which I am totally comfortable with actually. I am going to look into some devotional magazines and see how to send in devotions for them. I am excited now and I don’t feel so stressed trying to do a million things at once. I feel at peace with God’s decision, and if for some reason I have this wrong, I have no doubt that He will let me know right away!!
So I am praising God for helping me realize that I was doing too much and realizing that I needed to take a step back. My eyes are much better now, and I feel good about this.