Well I really want/wanted to succeed in this Stressed Less Bible Study and in some ways I have. I love the Bible verses. They are highlighted in my Bible and are posted around my house. However in some ways I haven’t. Just when I have given my health over to the Lord and have accepted it as being what it is BAM! I get slammed in the face with my health once again.
I had the worst panic attack I have ever had early Sunday morning (the 25th). I ended up calling 911. Because of the symptoms I was having they thought I was having a stroke so they rushed me to the hospital. I had a CT scan done that showed some white matter on my brain, so I was admitted. While waiting for an MRI I had some heart tests done and they showed that my left ventricle is working too hard so I have to follow up with my cardiologist which I was just referred to anyway. Finally got the MRI done and it showed nothing Thank God! I came home Wednesday afternoon.
Basically my anxiety is what put me in the hospital. That is not ok. Just last week I had on my blog people say that they were praying for my health and someone prayed a beautiful prayer for me; someone else commented on that prayer saying they were praying that prayer for me and themselves. I have had people praying for me all throughout this study for my health, and here we are at the end and I go in to one of the biggest panic attacks I’ve ever had. I have got to get my anxiety under control but I don’t know how else to do it. I think I need to dive deeper into God’s word for one thing. I don’t read the Bible enough, I really don’t. And now that I know how to verse map I need to do this more often because it really is a great thing. God speaks to us through his word and I need to listen but how can I listen if I’m not reading?